STILL FIGURING IT OUT

I don’t have a fixed morning routine. I wake up at different times—and honestly, whenever I open my eyes, that’s morning for me. Sometimes it’s so late I skip straight to lunch. If you’ve somehow stumbled onto this blog, let me be clear—this isn’t one of those productivity blogs. Think of it more like an endless scroll through Instagram vlogs... just with a little more heart and hopefully, fewer filters.

This blog comes from someone who's still figuring it out—and maybe you are too. 

 

Being 23 and still unemployed can feel soul-crushing—especially when you're living in a joint family where every day feels like you're quietly fighting a battle no one really sees. And to top it all off? The never-ending interview rounds—one after another, like a loop with no exit. Sometimes it feels like you're on the wrong track or maybe on the right one, just not fast enough or maybe not at the right time.

So, my little escape from this whole unemployment mess is... roaming around. I know, I know—“Unemployed and out exploring?” doesn’t really add up, right? But thankfully, Nani ji’s got my back with her pocket money sponsorship.

And honestly, sitting in one place, feeling stuck and suffocated? That’s just not me. "Ghumna-phirna" is more my vibe—it keeps me sane. There’s a strange comfort in just wandering around—like it’s as essential as breathing. But truth be told, it gets a bit dull when your “big city” feels too small compared to the real metros out there. Still, in those fleeting moments, it gives me a sense of belonging. Like maybe, for just a little while, I fit somewhere.

These aimless walks? They’re not aimless at all. They’re tiny acts of rebellion—against pressure, against timelines, against that voice that keeps saying “you should’ve figured it all out by now.”  Maybe I’m not chasing the destination—maybe I’m just learning to breathe through the chaos. And if that means taking the longer route, walking in circles, or simply sitting with my own thoughts for a while… so be it. Because figuring it all out? That’s not the goal. Living through it, that’s the point. 

So, that's all for Today. P.S. This blog is also where I’ll be sharing my little ‘tana-bana’ sessions with you—threads of thoughts, life, and everything in between. And since you’ve already labeled me a lovable mess, feel free to use your amazing connections wisely. Sure, you can send job offers my way on this email address (sayeedsumaiya9@gmail.com) —but let’s skip the never-ending interview loops, yeah? Just shoot me an assignment, have a normal chat, and maybe, be a little kind to the new kid trying to find her way in your firm.